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How Long Can You Go?

Let me ask you something: how long have you gone without sex?  A day?  Month?  Years?  The last time I had full blown, sweaty, filthy sex was approximately six years ago.  The whole night a session of jaw-lock and whiskey-soaked flaccidness.  A disappointment all around.  I don’t blame the girl, fuck no.  The problem was a dark secret that I’m going to share within the anonymous confines of the Internet.

I have been wanking for nearly twenty years.

Yes, you read that right.

I can trace the root of my solo clarinet practice to many defining points in my life.  Teenage bullying reducing me to a misanthropic totem rooting in disappointment and fear.  No success with women shrivelling my ego like a plant staved of water.  I am a walking cliché of psychological crutches that I cling to rather then casting them off in a triumphant Forest Gump style to run like the fucking wind.

If you met me and spoke to me, you’ll probably say “Seems like a good bloke”.  I like music, art, films, can drink like a fiend but behave as a gentlemen to those around.  But beyond the niceness, you’ll see me as a supporting player in the play of life.  I’m not married, have no girlfriend and no children.  As the song goes “I am a rock, I am an island.”  But unlike the song, for a man in his early 30s, this is failure.

But now is a time to twist things around.  My goal for this simple blog is to put together a document of my abandoning of the wanking lifestyle (and it is that) to try and break free of this life-long cycle.  Also, I want this as a document for every guy who believes that masturbation is the answer.  It isn’t.  Men are not designed to live alone.  Finally, every time I fail and engage in the action of “Shuffling Monkey” I shall detail what I did and how I jerked off.  Will Rogers once said you should “Live in such a way that you would not be ashamed to sell your parrot to the town gossip.”

Welcome to death of my Porn addiction.

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4 responses to “How Long Can You Go?

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  2. Great experiment. Thanks for blogging about it. I’ll be interested to read what you learn. Good luck!

    • Thanks Philosophe22 – I’m sure it will be a (hopefully) fascinating journey and if nothing else it highlights something we men don’t normally talk openly about.

      And kudos for being my first proper comment! Cheers.

  3. 1111

    You write absolutely beautifully and engagingly. I wish you all the best!

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